So, I got this bug to redo my portfolio. It'd been a while since it had been updated and I realized that the things I've showcased there really don't represent my best work now. I've done some pretty killer projects since I updated it...back in 2006? Maybe it was 2007. *ahem* Yeah, it's been a while ...<< MORE >>

I started this blog 2-1/2 years ago with great intentions. I lost 80 lbs. Then... what happened?? I started falling back into my old eating habits and eating out all the time. I started gaining weight. I had to buy new pants. I started getting depressed because I had to buy new pants. I gained a little more. I tried to rally myself, but only put a half-hearted effort into it. Failed. Vicious cycle, rinse, repeat.

I finally got the chance to meet John, you'd think HEY! Goal! Right? Honestly, despite the name of the blog, the goal was never ...<< MORE >>

So I decided to quit smoking. It wasn't an easy decision to make. If you've ever been a serious smoker you may understand what I mean by that. Here's the thing, even though you KNOW that you're stinky, that you are (in effect) killing yourself daily, etc., you still WANT to smoke. I've always loved smoking, I've enjoyed it really. Despite all the negatives and the cost, I really REALLY liked it. But I decided it was time ...<< MORE >>

Before I headed out the door to go float on a boat with John Mayer I was thinking about the friends I wanted to be there, but couldn't go. Last year when I went on the Mayercraft I brought a My Little Pony named CC to represent my friend Kelly. I took CC with me everywhere and sent text pictures of her to Kelly until we set sail and my phone became useless and/or way too expensive to use. This year, I wanted to do something slightly different ...<< MORE >>

So I went on a cruise with John Mayer.

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I know you've all been waiting for me to get this up and finished. I've just been simply exhausted since I got back and haven't had the time and/or energy. Plus, I've discovered it's hard to sit in front of the computer screen reading text when the world is still sort of rocking back and forth.<< MORE >>

I'm getting sort of tired of grieving, and it feels like that's all I've done lately. Everybody deals with it differently, but I feel like I've had more than my fair share the past several months. << MORE >>

I know I haven't posted a blog in a really long time. In fact, since the beginning of December when my friend Jessica came to visit. I guess I just haven't been in the mood to blog. Of course, I've probably written about 8 dozen of them in my head since then, it's just that none of them ever made it this far...<< MORE >>

My friend Jessica came to visit me this weekend from Baltimore. It was kind of in honor of the John Mayer listening party I was having & kind of a need to get away for a weekend. You'd like Jessica, she's good peeps AND a bunch of fun. Plus, the poor girl put up with me for an entire weekend and still appears to like me.<< MORE >>

Just when I seem to need a pick-me-up, my friends always seem to come through. << MORE >>

As many of you know, my Explorer hasn't been in the best of health. It wasn't the mysterious oil leak that no one can find (3 mechanics have tried, all have been unsuccessful). It wasn't even that I needed new front brakes. It was a tire. I thought it was just a slow leak, you know? It needed a little air now and again, which eventually turned into once a week. So, I took it in to get it fixed. It wasn't a slow leak, it was a nail. In the sidewall. That's not repairable, in case you ever wondered. ...<< MORE >>

I made a stray comment today using that phrase earlier today, referring to myself. A friend of mine picked up on it and I think she caught something I hadn't even really been aware of myself. Some habits die hard, self-depreciating comments and low self esteem are one of those habits...<< MORE >>

I keep meaning to write a new blog. I think I've started about 40 of them in my head and just never got as far as sitting down in front of a computer to finish one of those thoughts. It's weird now, the way I think to myself. I always think as if I were actually writing a blog only it's all in my head. I've sort of forgotten what it's like to think as a normal person. I can't tell you how bizarre that is to me ...<< MORE >>

Have you ever just decided you wanted to find some cool new music but weren't sure where to look? Well, no worries. I think I've found the place for you.

I know this guy, Pat, and he just started this spiffy new music blog featuring a Song of the Day and some other interesting tidbits. You might even know this guy. He's cool AND popular. Oh, and he's pretty cute too, you know, if you go for tall, dark and handsome. And funny.

Here's the link:
The Tremagazine

I once told him, if we were siblings I would SO be in his room, stealing his tunes. Now I can just go to his page and steal music. Er, wait, I'll rephrase. FIND music. And all without the worry of getting busted in his room...stealing his CDs. (As anyone with siblings will attest, violating the "my room" thing is a sure way to get your ass kicked.)

At any rate, Pat has a lot of sweet stuff on his blog. You should go check him out.



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It's Saturday night, pretty late. Well, technically I guess you could say it's Sunday morning since it's after midnight. I'm over at my folks place waiting for my laundry to finish drying as the washing machine at my house is currently broken. And, frankly, I'd rather be here than at some random laundromat. I'm stealing time on my sister's computer since she's out and the parentals have gone to bed. (And sis? Dude, your computer has issues. It's slow as hell.)

Where was I?

Oh yeah. I was going to wax philosophical, and secretly say a prayer of thanks for Firefox's spell ...<< MORE >>

Before I launch into my next set of ramblings I wanted to take a second to let everyone know I am having occasional problems with comments. I just happened to randomly notice there were several comments marked "inactive" in the "manage comments" section of my admin. If you make a comment and it doesn't appear in the comment section it may have fallen into the "inactive" section and those I have to manually approve. It seems to happen most often when people post web addresses in either the comment box or in the "my website" box. I think it's my ...<< MORE >>

So, no, I am not dead although it may have SEEMED like it. HA! I've been taking some "me" time, but no worries, I'm working back into my old self. But this blog isn't about that, it's about Ben.